What does it mean to 'adorn your soul'?
We say this a lot at Muraki, but what do we mean by it?
To me, adorning your soul means to consistently place more emphasis on the internal than on the external body.
How are you speaking to yourself on a daily basis? Would you speak to a friend that way? A loved one? What is the nature of the thoughts racing through your head? In what ways are you giving back to those around you? How are your choices impacting other people? Non-human animals? The planet?
I used to be the girl who would rarely leave the house without a full face of makeup on. I remember the few times that I did go to work bare-faced I felt overwhelmingly self concious all day and was barely functional. I used to look at myself in the mirror sans makeup and tell myself how ugly and sickly I looked, but when I was all glammed up with my makeup and hair done I felt radiant and confident.
That all changed mid 2017 when I was at the lowest point in my life. I fell into a very deep pit of depression and my hormones fell completely out of whack. My skin started breaking out with terrible cystic acne, the likes of which I had never experienced before (even in my teens). I saw every specialist, spent hundreds of dollars on skin treatments. Nothing helped. I could no longer cover up what I deemed to be my imperfections with makeup. I felt completely vulnerable and helpless. I was struggling at work, calling in sick all of the time because I found it difficult to leave my appartment. My relationships with my family and friends suffered for the same reason.
Then one day it clicked. I was spending all this time and money trying to fix the physical symptoms like my skin, but none on looking internally and asking the difficult questions. My skin was just a physical expression of how I was feeling internally, and the truth was I'd been suffering for a long time.
It's taken a tremendous amount of soul searching, mixed with fair bit of therapy, but I'm proud to say that I now very rarely leave the house WITH makeup on - and I feel just as radiant and confident none the less.
Now please don't take this the wrong way, I don't have a bone to pick with makeup. What I'm trying to say is that the connection that you have with your true innermost self is the most important and valuable connection that you can foster.
Once you have that, you can start to redirect all this energy you spend on trying to impress people, or chasing empty goals with no real intrinsic value.
Adorning your soul is all about valuing the things that truly matter. And one of those things is celebrating YOU and your authentic, perfectly imperfect, BEAUTIFUL SELF.
And with that said, my loves, adorn your soul.
With so much love,